Well, life got in the way and I got off course and then I made a conscious decision to just stay off course. I mean, for me personally, trying to make it through the holiday season is almost impossible unless the good habits are firmly in place and mine were not.
I haven't weighed in to assess the damage. I am trying to just hang on until Monday. I have full intentions of getting it all back together then but I am fully aware that I will likely be starting over from square one. It sucks, but I've done it to myself and that's that.
Every so often I try to become a vegetarian. And I am really good about it as long as no one else gets involved. For example, on my last attempt my friends decided to eat at Chick-Fil-A and my choices were limited but I did the best I could and then they grilled me about what I was eating and then I got lectures about the dairy and it was that whole my god, if you're not doing this perfectly then why even bother attitude. I always eventually throw in the towel. I tend to try it at the beginning of every year because I am so burned out on the rich food. I felt it the other day when I made my grocery list and I was doing the meats and none of it even sounded good.
So, I've decided to take a slower, more flexible approach. If I am stuck in a situation where there just is no option that's meatless, then maybe I will have a little without calling the whole thing off. And maybe I eventually will reach a point where I just won't eat in those circumstances. I am also planning to start doing my shopping at Whole Foods. I don't expect my family to veg out with me but I would like them eating a better quality of meat. So, I'm off for a few more days, but I'll be back!
