I Used to be Fat

*gag* I sat down to watch this show while eating dinner and now I feel like I am going to regurgitate the meal. I missed the first part but apparently this girl's father is forcing her to lose weight. And I don't know who the hell he thinks he is, but he ain't fit and trim. But he is really, really focused on her dating, getting married and having kids. She is eighteen. Thank goodness when he brought it up to her brothers how he was "worried sick" that she'd die an old maid they set him straight. Ew, and that extreme close up of that lady's acne in this commercial didn't help! LOL

So on to better things, I was down two more pounds today. Three weeks, nine pounds. Nice. And that's with a big dinner on date night!

So full!

I love it when I create something tasty AND filling AND healthful! I just took some chicken breast tenderloins and "sauteed" them in chicken broth in my wok. (Technically it was no-chicken broth, bought during a vegetarian phase but served the same purpose.) I cooked my broccoli as always, boiling for just three minutes but then I dumped that broccoli into the wok with the leftover broth and brown bits from cooking the chicken and gave it some nice flavor. And finally, not so healthful I guess but low in points, I cooked up some Uncle Ben's rice. Total meal just 7P+ and I am quite full and have allowance for a snack later.

I should see another loss tomorrow, even though I ate a lot last night. Friday night date night was at a Japanese steak house so I could not even begin to estimate what I ate. I just counted all the rest of my daily and weekly points and called it a night, LOL. It was delicious, though! I like having one night "off" to relax and just enjoy myself. We don't always go somewhere that extravagant, either.

Next week I promise I am getting back into the gym. I am undecided on whether to go back to yoga, too. I know it's an "excuse" but I just don't enjoy it now the way I used to. I think I might when I am smaller and I can better achieve the poses and don't feel so awkward. Although I just looked it up and 60 minutes of yoga = 4 AP. Hmm . . .

Holy cheeseballs!

These look SO good. And I think you'd only have to count the cheese (and any oil), I'll double check that, but this is on my to-try list.

Love this lady!

This gorgeous woman, Bitch Cakes, lost her weight also via WW. I cannot read enough of her blog, probably as much because of the weight loss as the fact that she is smoking hot and has an awesome apartment. Oh, and she's vegan, my lofty life's goal! A daily dose of inspiration, that's certain!

I finally got my ass to the grocery store today. I'll confess, since I managed to lose seven pounds doing it, that many of my meals these past two weeks have been eaten out or delivered. *cringe* It was a combination of weather and my husband being around a lot and I just never made a full trip to the store. So, I bought lots of fruit, but forgot bananas, darn! I got lots of veggies, greek yogurt, string cheese. And I also got a few treats. I know I can't rely on those long-term but sometimes I just gotta have chocolate. Plus, I know my kids, they'll eat my WW ice cream bars too, the little rascals.

I absolutely must start tracking more diligently. I want to get my butt back in the gym and see if I can't be one of those folks who eats all their points - daily, weekly and activity and still loses. Because that would be awesomesauce.

I still remain baffled by the people who eat LESS than their daily points because they're "just not hungry." Then how'd you get fat?! Hehe!

Checking in...

I really love this article on weight loss:

How This Weight-Loss Skeptic Lost 60 Pounds and Kept it Off

Warning: includes the "f word" multiple times. Although, if that offends you, you might not want to hang around me.

Anyway, I particularly loved this:

"So here, for anyone who's interested in losing weight or maintaining weight loss, are the nuts-and-bolts details: the specific "how-to" of my so-far successful effort to lose weight and maintain weight loss in an evidence- based manner, while retaining my feminist ideals and my resistance to body fascism. (And for anyone who's not interested in losing weight -- that's totally cool. I'm not evangelizing for weight loss for everyone. The cost/ benefit analysis of weight loss is different for everyone, and I completely support fat people who are genuinely happy with their bodies and aren't interested in losing weight. I just also happen to support fat people who do want to lose weight, and who want to do it in a healthy and sustainable way. Our bodies, our right to decide.)"

I love that. I was recently reading Portia de Rossi's book and toward the end, when she had gained a lot of weight, she talked about how she felt angry at herself for falling for the society ideal hook, line and sinker. But then she said that just as trying too hard to be thin and perfect is one way to feed into society's pressure, being fat is still a reaction. It's giving society a big ol' finger. She was making that statement for her personally, but it rang true for me as well.

I haven't been posting much. Probably because there's not much to report, I am doing WW and I am down seven pounds thus far. I am still not entirely on track with counting everything but I am making progress.

WW Online

I ended up joining WW Online. I am really not a meeting type of person. This week I consider sort of dipping my toe in the water. I was "on plan" the first couple of days but found myself ravenously hungry yesterday and I know I went over my daily points even though I stopped tracking. I am trying to figure out how to eat better so as to not be so hungry. I don't think I subsist on junk. I had oatmeal yesterday for breakfast, soup for lunch, fish tacos for dinner. I see these women on the message boards and they're always bragging about how they're SO satisfied and still have 20 billion points left! I think they're full of crap. Or maybe the hunger settles down eventually. I hope it's the latter.

I know that the points are just a glorified way of counting calories but they sure do make it easier. I think it is going to help me through those times when I am not able to eat well. When we're knee deep in baseball tournaments and all I can get is fast food, I will be able to control it now.

I was reading an article about the new points system the other day and the "dangers" of fruit. At first, I was annoyed, because I really hate to see people frightened away from eating fruit just because it has "sugar" in it. But then I was reading the comments and one woman was quite distraught as she had added FIVE oranges and THREE bananas PER DAY to her diet and gained weight. Uh, yeah, I guess that could be a problem. I just don't understand the lack of common sense. And it still frustrates me because people with half a brain who would never eat that much fruit are still being discouraged from eating it at all because of people like her. Which goes against the reason for the change. Whatever, I can't worry about other people, I guess.

Speaking of the message boards, I was pleasantly surprised that they don't seem as hostile as they used to be. There was a time when WW message boards were a very vicious, nasty place. It was even talked about outside the WW world, like "don't go there, they will KEEL YOU!!!" But better now, yes. Usually. I've spotted a couple of snarkmongers.

I still weigh daily on my Wii. I did regain a good portion of what I had previously lost. *sigh* but I am back down a few pounds already. So, that's my first few days!

2011

So, yeah, I'm not back as soon as I thought I'd be. Holidays still in the way but tomorrow for sure. Not even waitin' on Monday. My plans are still pretty much the same with one addition. I have decided to join Weight Watchers. I have been reluctant to do so as, at least here locally, it seemed to be all about getting as much crap as you could for the least amount of points. I want someone encouraging me to eat good food and not encouraging me to make some sort of cake concoction with diet soda. The new points system sounds appealing and I like that there seems to be more of a focus on what you eat, in addition to how much.

Speaking of diet soda, I tasted one at Xmas at my mom's house. GROSS! Which made me very happy. Since they don't taste good anymore, I am far less likely to get hooked on them again. Tomorrow I get rid of the real Cokes. I am switching to green tea.

I can't get to a meeting until Tuesday but I think I will go in tomorrow and sign up. Just so I can get the materials and get started. I talked to my husband a little about calculators and guides such and he was very encouraging to buy anything I needed. I know I don't need his permission, but as a stay-home mom I do worry about spending money on myself. So it just makes me feel better when he reassures me that it's OK, not to worry about it.